My anxiety is now at a 3/10 manageable. However, my communication is also a 3/10 lol which is bad because i am becoming more awkward as i get older lol. Though i am turning 20 on 16th February 2012 and i have no friends or plans, so i'll guess i will be just doing the usual of going to university and then going home to waste time.

PS; lol how do you get rid of those ads?

An update .

I am currently attending university also my goal of getting a six pack is almost complete

It's funny how I usually make a post when I'm either feeling down or excited .

Currently I'm excited and also my cat is snoring weirdd


One other thing ... Gyms take all your money .. They took 600 from me because I
Supposedly had a contract with them which I didn't know about.

My goal. To make sure I read terms and conditions off of gym applications lol

Sorry this post took soo long

well you know i broke my hand before well i had to have an operation on it to move the knuckle back into place :(   so i didnt want to type a whole perfect post with one hand.

MY GOALS

start a small business and turn it to a rather large business
finish my degreee
save 30 000 pounds ( i already saved 3000 lol)
have fun

SA is boring

im tired of talking about SA and saying i have . i would rather get on with life.   but sometimes i think im trying to shy away from the situation which would not get any better without my ful attention.

HELP?

My broken hand has healed

my broken hand healed at last. now i am going to go on a blog rampage but first.

" It is easier to make money then to hold on to it"

well this quote by me means ...

when i make £100 i tend to spend it not all at once but gradually over a prolonged period of time . then i am broke again.

when my freind make £100 he doesn't touch it keeps it in the bank and figures a way to expand that money using only a small proportion of it , so he decided to take £20 and buy some sweets/candy and sell it at his school by the end of the week he was £10 up and now has £110 .

after months he now has £500 and i have £0

Saving up and adding is the best for our finance not so much taking away.

good night

SA song

SA SA you are a Bi*ch
but SA SA you leave this ditch
indented around as if it was a football pitch
galloping greiving knowing kneeling
as if it where blocked in a bottle
and needed a throttle
to boost it out of me

SA SA you are a Bi*ch
but what can i expect from future plans
a lifetime of fear or food in my hand
without a job without a penny
this fear inside locked in me
as if  it were mocked and thrown inside.


what am i writing 
this crap is useless 
your not good enough and your just 
useless
they dont want you 
they dont need you
fear is enough especially when its bundled inside you.
now you shy boring person leave this house.,,,, what?

Don't tell me that SA!! I'm worthy of bigger better things
Now if you tell me crap like that i'll take you to a garbage tin
I am greater then you(SA) but one thing is i do need you
Just not to the extent of what you have given me.

THANK YOU ( my song is available in itunes LOL joking )

In the moment

In a bubble

I realised the decisions that I make are based on the emotions that I am
Feeling at the present time. Then what influences are emotions? The environment and the past
So when someone says do you regret running out of class at 14 years old I say NO

Why? Because I know the feeling I felt caused me to react. So i am not sorry or regretful.

Then what if you regret something you wish you had done?

Well I'll slap myself and say I'll learn from that and make sure I'll do things so I won't regret but once again I don't regret feeling to an anxious to go shopping or stand up in class.