Part 2

Part 2 coming soon :)

I never understood why people kept telling me are you ok? but i knew it really annoyed me. During that school incident i skipped classes queit abit. I failed my french speakin test because i was really nervous. I never told a soul about my anxiety...it was too awkward. if you get what i mean.


However i had the chance to do an english speaking exam which required me to act as a certain character from Of mice and men if you've read the book. I felt a whole lot calmer and at ease acting then being myself.


Then i had an idea Why don't i change myself as in my personality by acting in order to FIT IN.
Let me tell you , changing yourself (personality) your sense of humour, your image, is not a good idea. It turns you abit crazy and less likeable. Because you seem more fake since people don't know the real You.

*Do you feel like this?
I act Myself at home (fun and bubbly) but when i step out of the door i'm SHY.
Its as if i transform into boring shy guy.


Part 2 of the story is coming soon :)  Comment please :) really really apreciate every view :)

Yes, i have Almost overcome SA. i went looking for a job by going into stores and asking. I was so nervous anxious panicky.

My Social Anxiety begins at 15 years old

I am 18 years old male and my story started in london 2007/08;

As I walked to school i caught a glimpse of students entering our highschool/secondary school . This sudden feeling emerged over me. This feeling i had what was it? Why was it not stopping?

Strange yet sudden bolts of thoughts entered my head " If this feeling had a colour it'd be red and purple with a slight tint of blue." 

"why?why?.. I'll be ok..or maybe not..ill embaress myself."

As I get closer , the gate to school seems larger. The beutifull sunshine making no difference to my glass emotions. My emotions close to shattering.

Once again weird thoughts emerged "should i head back,or should i be brave and go on...but if i stay this feeling will destroy me...but if i go i'll be ok" 

..... this is part 1

(heres Part 2 preview)

I decided to suck it up like a man and head to class. My Head facing the ground. My eyes gazing round.

Suddenly a loud abnoxious voice spoke "are you ok?" well no i wasn't but was i going to tell him that no. I answered "yeah."  He replied "I can't hear you, speak UP!."